Why not today?

My new motto: Why not today?

Why do we put off things.  What if today was your last day on earth.  What did you put off to watch Netflix.  What was more important than the important stuff?  What text kept you from doing something that really mattered.

My parents are there for me.  They have always been there for me.  They have always chosen life.  Life is teaching your grandkids how to mix the soil in the garden.  Its sharing knowledge on sewing, golfing, baking.  Its giving yourself that makes you immortal.

So to counter act the cryptonite that is the shame freeze, I need to ask myself, "Why not today?"

Why not today?  It better be a good reason to give up your immortality and your humanity.  

Day 2 of writing every day

The days highlights

4 year old singing, "do you want to build a snowman"
taco's for dinner
super hot shower
dancing with the xbox and my thirteen year old.
reading with the boys
super soft blanket

Today I am grateful for family.  I love cooking for the family and seeing people eat seconds.

I was fairly grouchy and barely kept it in check.  I think I just need more sleep but I am not good at sleep.  So being grouchy sometimes is what I have to overcome.  Kids can sense when you are pretending to be happy.  Which is crazy because these are the same little people that hide in plain sight thinking they are geniuses.  The same people who blame dogs and wind for things they do.  For some reason they have a sixth sense for baloney.  To bad I sometimes am a baloney farm.

Random musings for a Wednesday.  I would tell stories of what people were talking about but this is a family blog:)

March Madness challenge

I love to write but never make time for it.  I have time to read the daily mail and facebook but no time to express an original thought.  So in hounor of March I am writing at least one time a day so stay with me I might say something good..  or not.

Have a mediocre day and look out and write!

I am not off to a great start.  I am so tired that I didn't notice I was wearing my shirt backwards all day at work.  I also forgot my coat and it rained.  I did go for two very cold walks and came home and made chicken and mashed potatoes and salad so it was a mixed bag.

True yove kiss.

As I have mentioned before, my life is insane.  I live my life in fast forward and these blog posts are my mini vacations.

Last night my little guy would not go to bed.  Because of our unique situation the boys share a large room.  Poor little guy was evicted last night for being loud.  He can in our room, "I got kicked out.  The boys said I had to yeave (all his l's are y's.. He is only 4)  I let him come into bed and rest with us until he settled down a bit.

I took him back in about 40 minutes later when I knew all the kids would be sleeping.  He said, "Sweep wif me."  I said, "Okay buddy I will be back in a few minutes rest and I will come back later."  

I totally fell asleep.   I got ready and went into the boys room to wake them all up and get them ready for the day.

The little guys pops up and says, "Your spot has been ready for sooo yong."  I am fairly certain he did not sleep at all.  I got all 4 boys dressed and while putting the little guys shirt on he says, "Do yount a true yove kiss? "  Insert heart melting.  "Of course I need a true yove kiss."

So he didn't sleep much, neither did I.  We did start the day with true yove so I don't think things could get much better than that. Some sleep would be really nice though.

Being loved

When I was about 3 my sister Went to school.  That meant I went from 3 playmates (extra parents) to just my mom and I.  We had fun reading books in the sunshine and we watched General Hospital Religiously.  It was so much freedom.

My dad made me an amazing desk.  I thought so at least.  He put a low shelf in the closet for the desk, A five gallon bucket for a chair, a pencil sharpener, several white Boeing pencils with good erasers and some paper.  So I had a private getaway, a farm and all the books and GH I could take.  It was paradise.  

I love my sisters but it was nice to have so much quiet.  I think I talked my mom's ear off so she probably doesn't remember the quiet.  I am the one who melted crayons behind the wood stove but in fairness I think we all did.

Not much has changed since then.  I still love books, sunshine, closet getaways and GH.  

My life took a strange turn and landed me back with my parents.  Now my youngest gets to have many of the same experiences while his brothers are at school.  He makes fun snacks, fixes my mom's iphone (sorry mom), and watches the "tard house" with my mom.  It is actually the "House of Cards"  but his way of saying it is way more entertaining.  

Its wonderful to be loved.

Shame Freeze

Happy Sunday!

Well at Sunday Supper, big lunch, My sister was telling me about laundry and things she had to do.  I told her that would put me in a shame freeze.  She asked what that was and I told her.

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It is when you have too many obligations and can do none of them

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for instance:

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You have a lot of laundry a phone bill that has to be paid today and you need to go grocery shopping.

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At this point you turtle up and do none of it

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lol

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shame freeze

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you know you know what I am talking about

The only way to get out of the shame freeze is to start with one item at a time.  You should pick the hardest then it is all down hill from there.  It is rarely even near as bad as you think.  Beware the shame freeze.  It usually involves tv and or the internet to try and distract you from what you really need to get done.
Well I have a cold so that is all for tonight.  Time to read more to the boys.  Also watch tv and turtle a bit.

I am totally creepy

I had a crazy day.  Freeing rain on the way to work.  Busy at work.  My manager was stressed and it made its way to everyone else.  The tiny gym was full and there was a guy doing the creepy leg weights.  I had to make dinner with my 4 year old and my 8 year old all over me fighting for attention. It was pure mayhem from start to finish.

I put the kids to bed and

first the eight year old comes in can't sleep.  Solution - hug and a trip to the bathroom.
Second the four year old comes in he forgot how to sleep and there are crumbs in his bed - I shook out his blankets that he crumbled ritz into.
Third I heard my 13 year old and he was still awake at 10.  He acted surprised that I didn't want him to read until morning.
My 11 year old would never get caught.  lol

I checked on them and they were all finally asleep.  I went to the four year old.  I sat on his bed, covered him up, ran my fingers through his hair.  I kissed his little hands and whispered I loved him. I went and repeated the same routine with each of the boys.

I went back to my room and thought about what it is going to be like when they are older like adults.  I then realized I am a crazy night stalker.  If someone played with my hair and blankets and kissed my hair I would be freaking out.  I am officially insane.  It does make my day to see their safe peaceful faces.  They are the reason I work at my job and work so hard at life.  They make it all more than worth it.  But I am a total stalker.

alright I must go.  

I may go and kiss some babies again to make myself feel better.  Ok only once or else I am a real creeper.

Just call him by his name please.

When you hold your perfect baby you never think of all the odd things these little ocd clones high on sugar may do.

My youngest, who is 4 was in dire need of a haircut.  I splurged, mostly from sheer exhaustion and got the boys real hair cuts.  So we are at the hair cut chain and my 4 year old smiles and gets on the chair.  Before I can warn her she says, "Hey little dude".  He glares at her and says, "MY NAME IS SAWYER."  I laugh trying my best to ease the tension and said he only likes to be called his name.  Please call him Sawyer."  She laughed.  Why oh why do people not believe me.  He is a great kid but hates any pet names.  So she says, "Come on cutie."  Why.  I think she did this on purpose to show me that I didn't use pet names correctly.  He retorted, "I'm just Sawyer.  Hurry up and cut my hair already."  I threw the kindle in his hands to distract him from the odd hair stylist who felt it was her goal in life to fix my son to love being called names that did not belong to him.  They continued to argue like an old married couple until he said, "Can we be done already lady"  She said, "Fine I am totally over this"  She put down her scissors and walked away.

He sat still.  He did not cry.  He just didn't want to be anyone's dude, baby or cutie pie.  She needed to get over herself if a four year old can stress her out that badly.  I tipped her nicely even though she didn't quite finish or take the cape off or style his hair.  I figures it was her due for pain and suffering.  Geez just listen to the parents and make life easier for herself.

For the record,  I hate nicknames as well.  Call me my name or just don't call me.

At least she had a good story to tell.

Power of a smile

Today at the store there was a person in front of me who was taking forever.  From coupons to card issues to putting things back this person was having a day.  The clerk looked to me and smiled.  It released some of my tension and my human conditioning turned on and I smiled back.  No need for excuses or talk just a smile.  I know not everything can be cured by a smile but that moment felt great.

So smile if you can it might be somebodies peaceful moment.

What women do in the shower.

1.  Shave
2. Shampoo
3. Condition
4. Make an impossible list of things to do
5. Sing
6. Berate yourself for whatever perceived wrong that only becomes clear in the shower.
7. Rinse
8. Tell the kids to get out of the way because you are coming out.
9. Get dressed before the kids come back in with important questions like, "If methane comes from garbage dumps why aren't we using it for energy".
10. Hug the kids (not to tight that is bad)
11. get back to working on that list you can never complete.

So it takes a minimum of 10 minutes.  I live my life in dog years so it all has to be in fast forward.

Happy 2016