So the first three times I wrote this blog it was so negative

Wow.

I need to get a grip.  (also known as chocolate and pepsi)  Everything I wrote this evening made me sound bitter and negative.  So I will try again.  

I wrestled with my 13 year old and won the first match but quit during the second because my 11 year old could apparently see my "coin slot".  This is really irritating slang for but crack.  So now my 13 year old wants a rematch.  I told him I retired.  He is not buying it.

My 11 year old is pretty cool.  He is really working hard to overcome dyslexia and get his reading closer to grade level.  He is also the coolest kid that all others seem to gravitate to  

My 8 year old ginga ninja is a red head to the 9th power.  He is funny and emotional and sweet and basically all over the board.

My four year old likes all his food in circle form.  English muffins, ritz crackers and chicken patties would be his perfect meal as long as there was ketchup that does not touch the other food until the appropriate time.

My 40 year old (husband)  tries really hard to find his spot in the world now that he is disabled and struggles with where he belongs. 

Myself?  I am not really sure about me.  I am always busy and now make sure I make time to write everyday so I don't get so wound up. My hobbies now are: laundry, work, making dinner, washing kids, kids homework and nagging.  I practice my hobbies on the regular and haven't slept through the night in over 10 years.  Between the kids and my husbands illness there is not a lot of time for anything else.  The bright side?  I have a full rich life and though it feels like the accelerator is stuck on full throttle I smile every day and am so glad I am making the time to reflect on my life and smell the roses.